Social

Dafuk is wrong with my phone. From now on I'll just freaking use English when using phone. Ugh save the inconvenience.

Today is just a normal day. Idk why but some things are telling me that ever since I've got this job, I'm kinda different from before. According to my sister,  I'm "formal". Oh yeah! Successful. I'm not that kind of banana that can give pressure just with my mouth, I can't speak fluent English. Uh maybe only to teacher.

I could only type a formal scolding speech.
"Then read out your scolding speech." Says my teacher. Blek. No. It's embarrassing to show the others how I suck at living. Anyways. It's just different that I care all these stuff. They say that might not be my business. But to me, it's responsibility. You can say, saving paper is your responsibility,  but while seeing others wasting like that, it's not your duty to save the earth. Meaning,  even if you might have a chance to save the world but you choose not to, and see it die like that? No way!

Alright. I'm not gonna talk bout this today. Some thing's telling me that the biggest change is the relationship with the whole library board. The past three years I've been a trainee. How awesome it used to be. I can remember, how we work together and chit chat at the same time. Years passed and those times are actually over. A friend from my batch said that she's so bored, everyone's doing their department duties. I get that. I lost my social life having this job. Some of them still have that trainee life. I could only see them, hear them but when I'm doing my job, there's a wall between us. I have that killing attitude when interrupted while I'm in a middle of stressing out. You know.  I'm always damn stressed when it comes to my job. I have to be perfect.

Well I've gained a lot. Trust from this teacher, her satisfaction, new experiences of what a secretary do. Well. It's a 'great?' experience. If I could exclude the part where my social life is gone...... I actually missed it. I remember last year's dinner. Our annual dinner. Or previous few year's. My sister's batch is an example. Mmmm. I remember they have a group photo. It's called "Thursday shift group photo". How awesome it could be to be close with your shift people. If you ask me...... I don't think I can remember every single member from my own shift,  because I don't see them. I don't even know their presence. Damn it. I suck.

I have a closest librarian friend that we had been in the same class since form one. Ah she loves me :). Previously we used to plan to be in the same shift, well...... ending up I left the shift to satisfy my own busy schedule. However,  she still loves me. Hehe. She would come and be with me during my current shift, and that is when I told her, I don't have a social life during shift. Then she was with me, I know I'm boring her. What else could I do? At last she agreed, that I do not have a social life. Daaaamn I'm out of here, next year wait till I retire. I'm so out.