When you wanna hide something, a face, an expression,  anything, go to bed, with earphones, max vol. I was in bed, lights off, except my bed light. Sister just got home, I'm glad she didn't noticed anything wrong. She couldn't see me clearly.
"Gonna sleep?"
"Nah, gonna study on bed."

Today was okay. I practiced cantonese at school. Arrogant ass thought I did that because i didnt allow him to understand. Hmm well. Tho he's quite hateful. ... we're still friends. Except when it comes to thaaaat group work. I dont care anymore. I'm clear with that.... discussion means his plans, tho it sucked. Anyway, "you decide, then tell me my part." I can sense him irritTed and frustrating, bout why do i look so uninterested.

I had class extended. I was having study mood, then, dying mood. This isnwhat happens when i play with such mood. Buzzling sounds, snapping sounds, rough and uncontrolled force, no soft tone. Fuck it. And shits in my mind makes it worse. Laughs became cold. Nothing else in the melody. Was reminded abt exam. Maybe, i screw it up, and end up not going along this path. Words mentally break down people, they bring it and it could easilybe brought to one another. I'm so sorry Mr Fung. You said, i seem tired. Uh huh. Mentally.

Never underestimate words. Mentally, physically, it kills. It brings fists to lose control, it makes everything lose control. Breaks skin, breaks people, breaks bones and brings stuff being thrown across the room. But it brings people back to life too. I need a chill pill. Junk food. Damn it. I need time, to remember, it wasnt you. The stress, the pressure, the shits around you are shouting  at me, not you. You'll never do that to me. Right?

Dont you hurt yourself. Be safe. Iloveyou.