Go?

Last year, was a mistake. Big big mistake. I neglected studies for other things. It's the past anyway. The only thing I could do for now, is to fix it. I think I can catch up for now, but I have to find time to fix previous mistakes. I thought I have time. Before you came into my life, I really thought I have time. Yeah honestly, I need to throw, to keep up my catch up previous studies plan. I need to throw lots of things. But you knew that I didn't wanna throw you. You knew that. I can throw everything else, people can't be too greedy, we just gotta let go of some things. Not you.

You said you're okay if I throw you aside for studies or other wtv important stuff. You said that. You have exams too. Why can't we study together? Isn't that the best way to keep both of us more boost up? Go. That's the word you've been using the most. Then? I'm ok I guess. Yeah I guess. No I guess. What's that about?

I know I might be busy, busy for things, but now it seems more like you're throwing me away. I wanted to tell you how school had been, how things are happening. Go. Study. Now. Do we have to do this? That busy I meant, I can still find time to update you about life here. I meant, I might reply a bit later but I'll still talk to you with all my heart. Go, you want me to go? That's not the way I throw.

Exams won't make people become strangers. While we all were concentrating, it doesn't meant that I can't socialize with my crazy desk mate, we crap bout things in syllabus,  you think thaaat can affect me from studying?

No communications cause people to change. I know. Busy. Not like I can't update you bout my life! You're not letting me. You're not even telling me what's going on there. If we're keeping on this way, we're gonna die. I don't want 'us' to die. Do you understand? Can you please, stop asking me to go? If I wanna study, I'll find a way,  and I'll tell you whenever I have to go, not like this. Just now I was having lunch. One of my longest free time ever, and all I could think was you, and telling you all about the things here. And you asked me to go.

Disappointing.