21/7 3:05am. Is it possible for a person to waKe in the middle of night because he/she misses someone too much? Did it just happened on me? Damn.
Wood I miss you. This hour, and couldn't sleep back. Wondering how are you doing, is it that you never woke or just no strength to take your phone.. I don't wanna text you and accidentally wake you... but wanna tell you I miss you and hope you're fine and not in pain ._. Woood.. please recover.. I'm scared of losing you.. be strong.. Jiayou, I love you! 😘😞😞😞
4:10am. Ok this sucks. It's been an hour plus I'm wide awake. Should I get a book and study or what? In the dark, many things came to mind. Mostly you of course. Then I imagined how the virus divided, then I thought of how to overcome that shit, of course, I have no idea. Then I thought of what we learnt in bio lessons few weeks ago, thought of the separated conjoint twins video, then my old coaches....... damn! I need to sleep. You'll be alright.. right?
7:39pm. It kills me to see him, being like this. Damn. I rather have many arguments and settle the problems, than this. Why can't you give me half of them, share the pain so you suffer half, and I help you suffer the other half. I seriously don't mind that. Haiz. Woodpecker... I feel so useless. I can only be by your side for a day, don't tell me to study. I don't mind seeing you sleep, numbing my right leg while changing ice packs for you, I don't mind leaving my books aside for a day, seeing you finally asleep actually makes me feel better... please recover! Damn. I wish I get high fever tomorrow so it could be sure that it wasn't dengue. I wish your lecturers suddenly MIA and you could get more rest. I wish your meeting cancelled and you could sleep. Damn. Please get well. I swear I'll be good. I'll study harder. I'll do whatever it takes to make you better.
Damn. I miss you so much, I never had a sec without wondering how you're doing. Please get well. Is there anything else I can do for you?
22/7 5:21pm. I'm sure you are scared too. You're strong, you'll be alright. Right? I am not regret, for diving into a relationship when I'm just sixteen plus. I'm not regret that I wasn't able to catch up my studies that fast because I wasn't looking much at my schedule, while hanging out with you. I wanna tell you that you're really really the one. No matter how long it lasts, til death do us apart. I imagined how would I live without you, and I couldn't imagine much, it's too empty.
Need a moment before I can continue HW and stuff. Damn, I wish I get a high fever now and proves that there's some problem with the results. Please get well. Please, please pretty please, get well.
6:28pm. I can't do anything anymore. Thinking bout that sentence. "Hopefully will wake up." Wood. You're strong. You had this once and fought it once. You're gonna fight that again. Yip man says, she did research before and it says, if you got dengue for four times, you'll be completely immune to it. You'll get stronger, of course you'll wake. Please, don't say anything about dying. You'll be fine. You'll be healthy and strong again. I'm gonna be your wife, and we gonna start a family, I'm gonna be yours forever.. you gonna be a doctor, and you gonna help lots of people. That's your dream, right? It won't end like this. At least believe, you'll be OK... woodpecker, you'll be alright.. you're gonna be OK... I have something to tell you.... Woodpecker, I love you, I'll try to be by your side, but currently I can't drive, I really wanted to be with you.. I'll be there as long as I could, as long as my parents could help me. I'll learn to drive asap. I'll be hardworking. I promise. Please recover..
10:43pm. Today, I'm so off. Emotionally. Damn pimples. Wood, take care of yourself.. I'm sure you'll recover. Be positive, okay? We all are just damn concerned.... I guess I got a little too annoying? Sorry... just can't help it..
<3 please get well
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