What job would not have stress? If you become a teacher, a class of students' future depend on you. You teach bad, they all gg. If you become a doctor, you might diagnose wrongly, you might made your patients lose their lives. If you're a clinical pathologist, you might have done wrongly on investigating a disease, and consulted the doctor wrongly. If you're a engineer, you might have false assumptions, you might cause death of a mother who's just trying to walk up across the escalator. Whatever you do, you can cause chaos. Why not go die. Why are there still those people out there? Those jobs are in demand. It's not that you can't do anything in this shitty country. Yeah, I removed a part of my previous post bout what I thought of studying. I said, I wanna investigate this shit. And kick dengue's ass. Whn a person is suffering from the disease, it's not just that person is suffering. Those people that love him so much, are suffering too. I get that. That's just part of my thought. I also removed that... you suggested Gynecology. I thought of that months before you suggested, but that's not my top choices. Main point is, if people out there think like this, avoid to risk because of stress... the world will suffer then. Don't risk huh. What do we live for ? We will die anyway, why not skip this awful process of living?

We live to change the world, people pass down knowledge from generation to generation to improve the world. What's the point of living, if you don't leave anything beneficial to this world?

Was trying to tell you that... after our talk, I cancelled my first choice. I cancelled it, and it left an empty space there. You know what, I can't study without a target. It's like I just lost mine. And now, I don't know where to go anymore.

I'm lost. Can't believe everytime I ask what will you think I'll do, you be like MIA. You just won't get it. Music is my last choice. If everything else can't be possible, then I'll be forced to go there.

My dad said, "Don't say that you're not smart enough, no one's ever not smart enough. Everything's have it's risk. You can't avoid risking."

Yeah. Even sitting on a chair is risky, it might collapse and you break your spine. It's risky, living.