Practice

These days. I'm so "inspired" after the masterclass. The more I see him play, I feel more terrible. Maybe I'm not suitable for this instrument at all. Maybe I should consider majoring another instrument.

I get pissed off practicing this. Okay I want this phrase perfect. Next target. I want two big phrases perfect. I wanna count and tap the beat while playing and it has to be perfect. I've learnt this for nine years and my bar chord still sucks. Imagine that. Damn it. Ok I want the whole . movement to be perfect,  no point moving to the next while there's still something to fix right?

I played for like so freaking long. My fingers don't sore, not like the books describe. From most English novels and stories,  their fingers sore and bleed if practiced too much.  Well in reality, it only sores at the first time, and the more you practice you become stronger. My fingertips has that dead skin already,  sore? Nah. But screw it! I never master that two bars. And the more I repeat, it gets worse. Maybe I should dump the instrument and fet snacks.

Some musician said to me
"pimples."
"my sister, upsetting me all the time."
"Come, don't be mad, eat chocolates. "
Then he tucked Toblerone into my mouth. It's sweet. Perhaps chocolates help. I ate one, and another, and another. Lastly I finished the whole box of it. Hey it really helps. I'm playing better. Just that I count suckishly. First movement. I've done it without any mistakes. Finally.

Practicing sucks. But it helps. Maybe I'm not a music person, maybe I'm more like an art person. I had so many exams. One subject that I never even flip the reference book is art. I failed a couple times few years ago. As a pure science student, they're happy that there's no more wasting-time-art. But to me, I'm gonna take that subject again, it's a chance for an A, why not?  Give the moon a shot, they say. After all the main subjects, I took art exam. The theory is more like guessing.  No clue for all those answers. But the drawing part, people used paint, mostly, but I used colour pencils, am I weird or what?

47/50. Hey that's an awesome score. They say I got the highest. I didn't give any shit to study he theory, and just did some random googling and I got the highest?  Wow. So helpful. I wish my bio or chemistry or whatever shit can be so fantastic. Yeah maybe I'm an art person. I chose wrongly, maybe, I'm not even supposed to choose pure science,  like I can proof myself?  Naaaaah