Do you know. When I've that thing, and feeling so freaking unwell, that I feel like I have to cancel classes, stay at home and sleep for a week,,, it's so freaking hard. I mean. I told him and coach that I'm feeling unwell, I don't think I could go to training. He thought I was sick. Coach told me to rest well, drink more water. Damn! It's wrong. I AM unwell but not sick, and feeling too shy to explain these things to a guy. But he figured it out, perhaps I explained parts and it makes the whole thing obvious.
Advantages of having a guy best friend, he might not feel what we feel but he knows and he'll try to help and give care and advices. I could tell him about my crush or whatever guy stuff and he could tell me about his girlfriend. It's that safe feeling, like when Alex went to Rosie's house, her parents treated him just like a family. He's part of the family. But my situation, my dad still hasn't fully trust me being with him yet. Maybe a movie is okay, but overnight is not allowed. Fine.
"You don't have to worry cuz he'll be there."
"Maybe that's why I have to worry more."
And I'm serious, if he's there, there's nothing to worry.
I'll go out and practice more with my old training mates, but not with the old way I used to play, okay? And yeah I'll do my best not to let you down, I swear I'm trying hard, just old habits are hard to get rid. You know, I used to hate mix doubles, a lot. I feel pressure, stress when I'm standing there needing guys to cover like most of the court. But pairing with you, it's way better, I guess cuz you're encouraging, and you won't hate me. I'll do my best, and try to make it through the second day.
Oh gosh wish me luck.
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