Ok.

I even wonder now, was I truly obsessed with this violent nature, was I attracted to that pain, to hurting myself?

Ok that's it! I have to stop thinking whether he still agrees to stay friends or not. I should eat more and replace that weight I've lost. I should really, really keep all the little photos into a box, and backup that folder which is created specially just for his photos, videos and voice clips. I should keep my room and start fresh.

Don't look back. I heard you said that before.

Once I keep your photos in the laptop, I won't look at them anymore. I won't reread my diary anymore, too.

Spm.
I wonder how previous spm was like. I never imagined it'll be like this. It's fucking out of my expectations. Teachers never let us do these brainless questions, we never had to write a page long answer for a 'Statement'.

Good thing there's no more "history-which-is-not-exactly-history". Why would you make the whole country study the textbook while the exam questions are irrelevant??

So weirddd. Ah hell.