Problems

Medicine are drugs. Are they good or bad? Seriously, I think it's like we shouldn't rely on them until we can't live without them.

My grandma has lots of health problems. Hypertension, diabetes are the major two of course. The thing is, she loves rice, bread and all starchy things. Jacob! That square cracker. She has her own way to get those stuff, so no one can actually stop her. Why do you go to a doctor if you don't wanna listen to their consults? Medicine can't be magic. She's got to control that diet. Ah old people. What can we do?

Not just that. Every morning, she goes to the park. She claims it 'jogging', but nah, it's just walking. That day she was sent back by a car, and had a hard time walking in. She said she tried to cross a drain or smtg but fell. Daaaamn. So mom brought her to clinic, and updated the bigg family group about this. Of course, we(me, my sis, and chopin cousin) are the victims. Oh gosh you should see how they criticized/insulted/scolded us. "The grand children can't do housework, blahblah."

I have the thirty second rule, which helped a lot, to prevent me talking back. So I replied 'Yes ma'am.' Deep down,
"_&#(@)!; You have no idea how to deal with this old lady, she loves to cook, you wanna make her sit there? Do you know how's it like if a person can't contribute to the house? It's like WAITING FOR THE DEATH TO TAKE HER, think about it, ladies. I have SPM. I lost my love of my life. Do any of you wanna taste all this shit? Walk in my shoes and speak again, idiots."

She still won't rest. Now her joints are inflamed. Diabetes medicine having more and more side effects(vomiting etc). Ugh I really don't like the idea of medicine. If you ask me, I never had Panadol in my whole life(since the day I'm conscious about myself), so Idk why did I kept an extra in my wallet lol.

I dislike people, but maybe that doesn't make me don't wanna help. I feel bad knowing his car accident, the most I can do is send a wish you get well message. I feel bad about my grandma being unwell all the time.
#thereasonsihatebeingyoung
Not able to study things that are really useful for the future.
Not able to even buy a little thing online.
Not able to do anything because I'm underaged.
"Hey, how do I sign up for the crew?"
"We're looking for members who are age 18-25, blahblah."

Ok. The first one doesn't fit. Forget it! Four more months. It'll be the next phase of our lives. What are my aims? I don't know? I want my presence to benefit the world. Can't wait to study to actually be useful.