I wish I didn't have a direction abt my future. I wish I don't even know what I want. So I won't work on anything,  so I can have time with you. I want time with you. But I can't squeeze time out. I'm tired. I wanna sleep. But I wanna be with you. I don't wanna sleep. I wanna squeeze time out but I'm fucking tired to do it. I feel so useless. What can I do? Man. I wanna do something. But I seriously dk what else to do. So many things in my mind I feel like going crazy. I don't wanna do anything I just wanna hug you tight and forget about the world. Why isit so hard. I didn't wanna throw you aside I swear. Feeling like shit. Wish you're with me now.

It's not that I don't wanna sleep. There's so many things in my head. This is so terrible. I miss you. I need you. :'(