I'm unable to play bach. The next two songs, worse, I never even touched them. Maybe I practiced too much for piano, and had no time for guitar. Maybe I shouldn't even touch my minor and diminish instruments. I can't play bach, I forgot most of the scales. Teacher's disappointed. Later I'm having class. I'm not prepared. I was never prepared. Even if I did, he still think I did not practice. But now I really didn't. What is he gonna say? He's not scolding me. But I know I'm disappointing him. Haih. I know how's it like having a student that doesn't practice. I get it. And I'm being that kind of student.

I suck. That's why I don't even have the rights to be envious of people. They put effort, to achieve whatever they achieve. I did not. I'm 'lazy'. I shouldn't be mad whenever they say that. They're right. He said, " please, don't throw it aside. Spm is this year. Your exam is this year too. You're running out of time.. please memorize this by next week..." I remember it, but I didn't do anything about it..... neglect studies or music? Pick one. Pick.....

I'm so tired.