"What happened,  why were you two looking for her in such serious face?"
"She brought phone to school and I caught her..."
"Then what happened? Took her phone?"
"No, her sister came to pick her up. She looked so bitchy and mean."
"Her sister was a librarian too. And we all hate you all, prefects."

She smiled bitterly.

Maybe that prefect would accept your doubts. But after all this, she's doubting you back. I kinda think. I'm always serious bout things. You know that right? I know I needa change that. People tell me, I'm hard to be with. Especially my family. Cuz they know me, the most.

I don't allow myself to joke around. Cuz I don't like it when I'm so damn serious and people are just making fun. Feel like getting played. Yesterday night, our talk reminded me of something I didn't want to think. I actually succeeded not thinking about it, but I guess I can run but I can never hide?

I doubt too, ya know. I just forgotten about it, for a while. About her. I'm not doubting your loyalty. I'm doubting,,, bout... I don't think I can put these in words.

I hope you're serious about us. That's all.

I'm sorry I drafted this. I didn't wanna let you know. Cuz when you doubted me, I felt so terrible. I don't want you to feel the same, it sucks. But if you wanna know, I'll let you know. So many things happened in the past month. When you kissed my cheeks, my reactions changed, from super shy to ... gahh I wanna kiss you back. Things change real fast. Who knows what will happen eh? :P
Sorry..