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I'm someone's "AUNTY" now omygosh.
Today we visited my cousin and her newborn daughter. She made labor sound so easy, I guess she's just lucky.

It's sad. Everyone's so happy, everyone's smiling, laughing. Today was graduation day too but I didn't attend. I don't want to. Seeing everyone so happy just made me wonder, why is everything so not right in my life.

Yes you could say I have a place to live, have a grandma who always force me to eat and get fat, yes I have too much. Maybe that's why. Things can't be perfect. I was too lucky to have them all, for that nine months.

Maybe we should never let ourselves feel too happy. They never last, as usual. Was too stupid to believe.

Nothinglastsforever.