Damn, I thought I was damn fucking hungry in school. Half portion filled me up. Eesh what's wrong with my appetite. Can someone's stomach actually shrink?

Made few decisions, stop all instruments but training.... I'll just go as usual. Damn, our spm seat. There's this girl who always had the highest marks for English. She's so gonna screw me up.

I can't focus.

There's a lot of shit in my head. I'm scared that I can't do well for chemistry. I have super low confidence. Idk wtf is wrong with me, but I'm just worried bout everything. Gosh. I wish we can take the exam and get to know the results a day after. I'm scared that after everything, I go for work and everything, end up I'm not even qualified to go where I want. I'm scared that I relax and when the day comes, I screw up chem. I'm scared of that disappointment that I'm gonna get next year. I don't know how they score so well for everything. I don't know how to do well in bm.

Fuck my life. There's not much time left.

Please please do well. Bringmehome,man.

I'm so tired. Mentally, physically. Still holding on on someone who already let go, making an effort to hope the bond remains, it's so so tiring. It's crazy how a random song can bring everything back to life. So exhausted, in and out, studies, spm, you.

I wanna sleep and never wake up. My goshh. Help.