Not ok. I faked to be asleep when dad called me for dinner. I faked to be asleep when grandma did the same. I listen to that song and everything's just not fine, choking over my own snot.

I hate living like this. I miss books, dramas. I wanna die. Just one day. I'll start studying after this shit. I'll leave this stupid stack of mattresses. I'll get up and study. I'll prove to you I can die again and again in one night And I'll still get up and live.

Learn to say no.