I stood in the crowd, mom introducing me to all of her friends. She's pulling me everywhere. I feel like fainting. Oh I recognize one if them. There was this charity carnival a while ago, my sis went to help and almost lost her car keys.

She said she recognized me. She said, I look skinnier. I never realized 2 kg could make any difference. Mom said, maybe depression made me lost weight. If depression can inhibit Ghrelin, yeah maybe that's why.

I hate the crowd.
I used to be ok with crowdy areas. Everything just feels different now. I hate to be with many people. All I can do is look at my chemistry book, then look at my phone, and look at our photos.

I miss you, when I'm in the crowd. I miss you whenever I'm breathing. Hell. I'm getting headaches. Let it end, let this feeling end please.

Personalities? It can change too, not that we want or not. Maybe after ten years, I'll be a completely different person from now. Maybe I can't achieve whatever I wanted, and I study what I'm not so interested in. Maybe I can't get credits for two science, and I can't study in whatever pre-u I wanted. It's still hell. A week before the exam, why?

Why this time?

I have to stop thinking about you, about all the wonderful memories, about your smile, your laugh, you. You're just too perfect to be forgotten.