When you told me you like me, I
Toss and turn, fuck I can't sleep.
I was nervous and too excited.

When you told me dengue positive, I
Toss and turn, fuck I can't sleep.
I was worried. I was sad, I was crying.

When we had fights, you stopped making sure that I'm ok before the day ends.
Toss and turn, fuck I can't sleep.
I dehydrated myself through the eyes.

When you told me you're enough of us. You told me, let's just be friends from now on.
Toss and turn, fuck I can't sleep.
I wanna knock myself till unconscious. I want to rest but I couldn't. There's still hope for spm IF I had enough rest to study more.

You never knew how you could affect someone's life. I told you that I see my cousins my friends' friends breaking up, and I'm scared. You said

As long as you love, I'll always love you.
I told you, I don't even know how to stop.

I hate time for being too short when I'm with you, and too long when we are apart.

I hate your smile and your eyes for it melts my heart when I see it.

I  hate your voice because it echoes in my mind all night after you said goodbye.

But the one I hated the most is myself, I HATE MYSELF for mistreating myself just to love you.

If there's ever a chance someone tells me he loves me like nothing else,

I'm not gonna fall for it.