请 不 要 在 我 面 前 说 “前 任”。

I'm ok talking about the happy moments we had, I'm ok talking about how awesome he is, I'm ok to talk about he left me. I'm ok to look at our photos and videos, I'd smile and... look, he's awesome. I'm ok thinking about our conversations, and our hugs our kisses our memories. I'm ok missing him, imagining him snoring so loud and adorably cute. I'm ok continue loving him without having the same treatment back.

I'm not ok when anything or anyone reminds me that, it's because of me that he left. I'm not ok when I'm reminded, I've ruined my own dream future with my idiotic way of living. I'm not ok when you call him "my ex". I'm not ok when you have to tell me, I deserve being left by him. I'm not ok when You remind me that, You emphasis on how suck I am, how terrible I am. I'm not ok to be reminded, he left me because I am me. I'm not ok because, I hate myself, when you remind me of those. I hate myself so much. I love him with all my heart but I'm not qualified to be his lifetime supporting partner. I'm not ok because, I don't have the rights to care about him like I used to. I don't have rights to hold his hand when he's not well on bed. I'm not ok because, I regret for being whatever I've been doing.

I regret. Do not, call him my ex. Call him by his name. Call him "him", and I'd appreciate that.

It hurts to be reminded that he is my "ex". Please, don't. I regret. Do you have to make everything worse? Why? Just, shut up